Don't think.

"Don't think. Become."
-Guillermo del Toro

I believe we can be so much more than contingent flesh-bags serving the cyclical and mundane chorus of life. Wake-up. Eat. Work. Sleep. Repeat. Maybe we are so much more than what we think we can become.

Lately, I've been thinking of becoming a doctor. For the longest time, this is what I settled my aspirations towards. Why not? With my love for sciences, a good academic record,  the high pay, the countless demand for health practitioners, and with college just around the corner, I think this is the most immediate and most practical choice for me. Though I can't help but doubt. I feel like there is something so much more than a clinic and a degree. I'm not saying healthcare professions are not noble or worth gratifying; saving lives of people 24/7 is truly an act of heroism. But what else is there? Pretty ungrateful to ask, no?

Maybe because of my fondness for fiction, I get my head stuck in the clouds longer than I should be. It's like after a good watch/read, the story resonates through my consciousness from the beginning to end. Looking back and recalling how much the characters change and watching them both crumble and evolve gives me a secret hope that maybe I, too, can be something-- or someone brave enough who will resonate through the very hearts and souls of many.

Some may call it ambitious or even wishful thinking. If you want to be brash, call it lying to yourself. Pipedreams.

Going back to the quote... how can we become what we don't think we can be? Thinking precedes becoming, doesn't it? Or so I think it is, hence, it becomes because I believe so. (Get what I mean?)  But the quotes says otherwise. So, considering the statement, it means that to aspire to be anything else I dream of being-- whether a doctor, an astronaut or a hero or basically somebody, anybody-- I have to become. But become what? Become how? I only know what I cannot not be. And that is not even mine to choose. It is what they choose. Whoever they are; Parents, friends,  social expectations, religion or fear. What a sinister thought that we are only what others make of us-- whether from love or hate.

It is said that humans are the highest form of life on Earth. I think what makes us different-- not necessarily better--  among the other creatures of this world is our individual dreams. A penguin is but a penguin because it was born a penguin. A human child, however, is never just one thing. And above all the other dimensions of one's self is the dream-- the idea, the call, the hope of becoming not just a being, but a force and catalyst of change.

2019 is right around the corner. Hopefully, I can either make certain of becoming a doctor, or I find out what I really will be. Wonderful Holidays!

Comments